The last lap

I know its just two more weeks now.. If I work hard these two weeks, I will be a free bird.. Yet it is so hard.. to even look at my papers.. I want to scream, run away, do anything but read some more!! I am spending time on doing random things I won’t care about on a normal day!

And it is not even that I work all day.. I spend enough time reading non-academic stuff and while away some time every day.. But I feel so bloody stuck right now… I just want to scream out loud… I am so restless that its hard to sit/sleep/study – I think its because I don’t have any physical activity! It has been almost 3 days since I haven’t studied properly, and time is running out!!

I think I’ve gone crazy.. I’m wasting time looking at different places I can visit, even when I know that I can’t plan anything right now.. Why do I feel so desperate – like its the last chance to take a vacation? Is it because I feel so stuck here, is it because I am sick of the routine that I am in? I majorly need to analyze my life and prioritize, and star living life the way I want.. I need to get over my inhibitions and fears, and stop thinking about other people’s expectations from me.. And I need to find happiness in small things in everyday life!

But before all that, I need to pull my act together and start preparing for this exam.. This is the most crucial time.. As they say, the last lap is the longest!! God please give me some peace of mind and help me focus on my studies.. I really want/have to do well in this exam!

This entry was posted in frustration, LIFE, Random. Bookmark the permalink.

12 Responses to The last lap

  1. sm says:

    good luck for exams.
    you may listen this song yeh honsla below is link
    http://realityviews.blogspot.com/2009/06/yeh-honsla-lyrics-in-english-and-hindi.html

  2. Tanya says:

    Is it the prelim? Good luck anyway.

  3. Bikram says:

    Right forget about everything and concentrate on studies ..
    I can tell you from experience that If i had studied then I would have not had to struggle now, I mean I ma doing very well but had i studied then I could have done much better ..
    I know we dont like it when people say it to us I did not like it too , because ohter things seemed to be important that time .. 🙂

    you take care and thank you so much for visitng my blog 🙂 god bles sand BEST OF LUCK for the exams …

    • kinmin says:

      Thanks for visiting my blog, and welcome here! 🙂 Lol I totally agree with you about the studying part, and not wanting to hear it from others! But I guess as you grow older, you realize these things! Yeah, I’m trying hard to focus on studies, thanks for your wishes! 🙂

  4. Good luck! Make sure you get *some* physical activity everyday. Believe me, it is time well spent. You just need to get away from your comp and the books/papers for a bit every day. Again, GL!

    • kinmin says:

      Thanks Agnija! 🙂 Yeah I try to go for a short walk everyday.. Coz earlier, I was just sitting and eating, and have put on so much weight! Anyway, that’s a different story.. Thanks for your wishes! 🙂

  5. Elegant Chic says:

    Been there. 🙂
    Every other thing except academics seems to be very interesting during study hours. Try taking breaks in between instead of sitting at a stretch.
    Just a matter of few more days of hard work and you will be FREE!!! Good luck dear and come out with flying colors!
    Pssst… All those places you want to visit will be there when you are done with your exams too. :mrgreen:

  6. kinmin says:

    Thank you all for your wishes! I did well, and my committee was really happy with my proposal! And most importantly, I am free now!! 🙂 🙂

Leave a reply to kinmin Cancel reply