I know its just two more weeks now.. If I work hard these two weeks, I will be a free bird.. Yet it is so hard.. to even look at my papers.. I want to scream, run away, do anything but read some more!! I am spending time on doing random things I won’t care about on a normal day!
And it is not even that I work all day.. I spend enough time reading non-academic stuff and while away some time every day.. But I feel so bloody stuck right now… I just want to scream out loud… I am so restless that its hard to sit/sleep/study – I think its because I don’t have any physical activity! It has been almost 3 days since I haven’t studied properly, and time is running out!!
I think I’ve gone crazy.. I’m wasting time looking at different places I can visit, even when I know that I can’t plan anything right now.. Why do I feel so desperate – like its the last chance to take a vacation? Is it because I feel so stuck here, is it because I am sick of the routine that I am in? I majorly need to analyze my life and prioritize, and star living life the way I want.. I need to get over my inhibitions and fears, and stop thinking about other people’s expectations from me.. And I need to find happiness in small things in everyday life!
But before all that, I need to pull my act together and start preparing for this exam.. This is the most crucial time.. As they say, the last lap is the longest!! God please give me some peace of mind and help me focus on my studies.. I really want/have to do well in this exam!